Dear God

Dear God,

I am just another human creature that you have developed (and I guess, forgot about him). Anyways, i just thought to write to you.

I am totally clueless about your plans about me. What is happening is at one point i am on the top of the world and the next time you just throw me from the pick.Almost like a bungy jump, i have so many ups and downs. I really have no time to settle. Every time i have a reason to cheer about, immediately i get something sad, disappointing happening. Why is so god? WHY IS SO?

I understand this is what life is about! But when i see around it is not always the thing. Agreed there are people who are living their life miserably. I have much better life to live, and i am thankful to you. But i am really frustrated with the frequent ups-and downs. If i have something to celebrate, now a days i am sure that something bad, something sad is surely on the way and this is what scares me.

I am really disappointed, low on moral don't know what to do. I have never felt so helpless, tired about my life.

I don't understand, the problems are really big, or just the way i am seeing them is wrong? Is it a Anxiety or Panic attack that i am going through? Look at me god, LOOK AT ME! Am i the same person, i was few years back? When i see my photos of past, i feel so bad and pity about those photos. How happy i was that time?

For the world, i am a happy-go-lucky creature. I pretend, i swear god i pretend to be. But in deep inside my soul, i am shattered, completely shattered.

I am bored of this civilized life, i am bored of the peoples, their so called egos around me, their mentality really sucks. I hate it. I want to break free, go out somewhere where nobody will know me. Where i will be JUST ME.

Help me god, help me. Give me strength to live the way i have dreamed about My life. Please give me some admin rights to handle it. I don't want some super user to control it :-(

सारी उमर हम, मर मर के जी लिये, एक पल तो अब हमे जिने दो.. जिने दो..

बचपन तो गया, जवानी भी गयी, एक पल तो अब हमे जिने दो.. जिने दो..

Give me some sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
I wanna grow up once again

Comments

[Rahul Patki]

Hello,

Ye Jindgi B na jane kitne mod deti hai

Har Mod pe Naye Sawal Deti Hai !

Dhundhte hai hum jawab jindgi bhar,

Jawab Mil Jaye Toh Woh Sawal Badal Deti Hai ......

 

So Live The Life As It Comes...

Rahul Patki